相信报应吗？

原来拒绝一个人会失去另一个人。

只不过，从来就没有得到过，如何失去？

我又累了。
２５岁的我似乎很容易累，很容易受挫折，很容易想要放弃。
对于没有把我，如此千变万化的感情，有时候真的没有比较好。

应该怎么说呢，
感觉现在的生活好像还挺不错。
虽然我的粗心大意有点让工作没有想象中的理想，但是应该不会糟糕到要炒我鱿鱼。

另外一半虽然没有爱到死去活来。。。

seriously. SERIOUSLY. 

No wonder I want to quit and no wonder everyone wants to quit. 

I am SO GLAD this is my last few days here. 

3 more hours for today.

6 for tomorrow.

8 for Friday.

I am so determined to leave and start an un-insulted life.

Breathe in breathe out.

YOU CAN DO THIS.

Just because it isn't our first language doesn't mean we can't speak it.

And just because it is your first language doesn't mean you understand everything spoken in it.

It's no wonder why some companies and countries can't move forward.

井底之蛙

Everything seems to be going on pretty smoothly.
Like I mean EVERYTHING.

Well, of course there would be some minor hiccups here and there,
Like my blabbering about all the fun time I've had before I decided to settle with him,
Like my supposed lack of commitment and IT skills for freelancing
Like my completely hopeless complexion
Like my absolute lack of ability to stop snacking and start working out

BUT other than these small issues, everything seems to be just fine.
My new job is more or less secured,
My new apartment is more or less move-in-able
My new boyfriend is more or less stable and fun and sane

I am so going to rock my life starting from the new FY2015

GOGOGO

RELAX and PLAN

I guess when too many good things happen together, I can't seem to process well.
I get dizzy with happiness and forget to thread carefully.
This time, I am going to take things slowly and carefully.

Making a list ALWAYS HELPS:

1) SIGN CONTRACT (without that, you are nowhere near anything)
2) CONFIRM STARTING DATE (negotiate for 1 May. If they want you, they can wait 10 more days)
3) RESIGN
4) CONFIRM MOVING IN DATE
5) BOOK MOVING COMPANY
6) START PACKING
7) START MOVING SMALL STUFFS

Start afresh

I feel like I am THIS close to getting a new perfect life. Well, maybe not perfect, but everything seems to be falling into place. A little too miraculously. I guess the previous mishaps and all those fails have made me kinda jittery and worried.

And I guess I now have the habit of not hoping too much. Because the lesser you hope for, the less disappointed you will be. And also, to move on step by step.

GOALS:
- Move into my OWN place so I will not be tied down by anyone
- Get my freelance work fixed and constant (BUT also note that freelance work must either be HIGH PAYING or value adds to resume)
- New job? (BUT make sure that it is better than what I have now, in terms of salary, MORE IMPORTANTLY, resume value)
- Stop dating indiscriminately. (I AM GOOD ENOUGH TO CHOOSE)
- Love myself, love mom and dad

Even if everything is not perfect, I am moving to a better future.
JIAYOU

I think I'm really falling. Falling in love.
Can't stop thinking about you.
It's weird. Just when I thought I was skeptical about everyone and everything.
My vampire from Mars

Crisis in the form of a MARTIAN

Okay I am like SO going crazy. so there is like so much problems with my moving in and everything. I mean like I don't think that guy is trying to con my money or whatever, but SERIOUSLY, I already TOLD you that I'm broke, and there you are trying to get more money out of me every other day. SERIOUSLY. Can you please do your homework and make sure you KNOW how international transactions and shipping work before just sending your keys to God knows where? And now you have to ask me for air ticket money. Seriously. You have got to be kidding. I'M BROKE. Which part of this do you NOT understand? Whatever, I have already tried my best. I even LOOKED for flights for you. Hopefully you can just take take Ethiad and save us ALL some trouble.

On another note, employment seems to be looking not bad. NEVER ASSUME YOU ARE HIRED UNTIL YOU SIGN THE CONTRACT. Yes, that will be the motto I live by now. @Aroma looks kind of promising. But I will wait around for TELL too. And if everything with MogMog works out, THAT would be really good. But for now, I can only be patient and wait.

And of course, somehow, most unexpectedly, I think I'm falling for someone. Maybe 2 people. Haven't felt like that in awhile. Maybe with Justin, but recently, everyone that I have feelings for are either attached or just plain UNINTERESTED. FRIEND-ZONED. Whatever. Brian was cool. But he's leaving. And now, my vampire from Mars. I'm falling. And falling fast.

Help.

Need to pen some thoughts again.
Makes it clearer to think this way.

TO-DO:
- MogMog articles (for completion: Okinawa, Moomin, for proposal: Asakusa)
- Research on Geisha stereotypes and draft outline
- Moving house quotations and date
- More writing assignments (Online cooking translation -> Mike)

TO-MEET:
- Peter
- Mark
- Leo
- Brian
- Eidan?
- MTW
- Shun's graduation 25/3
- Blender 28/3

Priorities.